Lifee

2010-07-17T10:12:00.001+08:00

Beautiful Nightmare...

It has always been you...

-ElfieSky

2010-03-31T01:12:00.009+08:00

Only i know how it feels. . .

Not for once have i forgetten.
Think what you may cuz only i know how it really feels deep inside me.

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky. . .

2010-03-17T01:32:00.007+08:00

A-W-E-S-O-M-E

Sometimes its better for things to be left unsaid.
Sometimes its better not to say hello.
Sometimes its better to keep things to yourself.
Sometimes its better to get hurt.
Sometimes its better to do the hurting.
Sometimes its better to be heartless
Sometimes its better not to fall in love.
Sometimes its better not to look back.

Sometimes its better to just leave and not look back at you. (:
And i know i won't.
Trust me on this.
I'm sick and tired of games that keeps replaying.
Feelings are just games now.
Karma is the sweetest revenge, . . .

Most of the times,love is just a game of heartbreaks. (;

And all the sometimes becomes too often and i still don't get it.
I still don't learn from that mistakes and keep repeating it.
Just not that awesome when that sometime becomes a game. (:

I miss awesome!
Just one day of not meeting and i miss them like &@^$#(*&@#!
Go figure. haha
Three days straight we ton with each other.
Sumpah kecoh.
Like as mention,AWESOME!

I'm hurt,you're hurt.
But its best if you move on,cuz i'm doing the same.
I'm not looking back anymore.
I'm sorry for hurting you.
Its best for both of us.
I'm sorry,munn.

I'm never looking back. . .

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky. (:

2010-03-09T01:03:00.002+08:00

Thank You For Loving Me . . .

I Guess I'm Just A Sucker For Love . . . (:

Yours Sincerely

ElfieSky . . .

2010-03-01T23:37:00.004+08:00

One more time. . .

You make me feel like i'm in heaven despite knowing what i'm doing is a sin.
You make me speechless when you said stuff that ain't true.
You make me realize that love is nothing without you in my life.
You make me wanna tell the whole world its you that i love.
You make me smile despite every shit we've gone through.
You make me angry by shouting at me when i'm just like in front of you.
You make me laugh with all your reactions.
You make me wanna love again.
You make me realize that life will never go the way you want it.
You make me wanna make you feel much more special than any other girl.

Baby,don't ever say i don't care.
Every little things you do for me,i still remember it till today.
All the sacrifices you did just for me.
I appreciates it. I really do.
I know i haven't been a good girlf lately.
I haven't given you the attention you need.
I'm sorry.
Baby,remember that i've promise you till 4th march.
After that no more nonsense from me.
Just be patient alright.
I guess i'm too use to having freedom that i keep doing things that i want without thinking of you.
I know what i'm doing is wrong.
You're getting punish for something other did to me.
I'm sorry.
But please don't ever think i don't love you cuz i do.
I'm just not good at showing it anymore.
Forgive me.

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky

2010-02-09T22:01:00.003+08:00

[My life won't be complete without these two humans.
They're most impt to me. Harm them and you'll see no tmr. (: ]

De'lle says : saket no smoking okay?

And she expects me to listen to that? hahaha! (:

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky. . .

2010-02-05T23:15:00.009+08:00

Love Fool. . .

Firstly wanna thank kydd for doing my blog.
And SELF-linking! haha!
Thanks! (:

Been going out alot lately.
Mostly slacking and crapping.
Other than that,i miss Girlf!
And today went Wild Wild Wet with Rique,Lina,Fred and LOVE!
I would bring her everywhere i go as long as she can. (:

Don't even once think i don't care about you.
Don't even dare saying i don't love you.
Don't even try accusing you're not on my mind.
Cuz...
I do care for you!
I do love you!
And you're ALWAYS on my mind!
Get that in mind!

And i made new friends. (:

[To both of you; Do things behind my back AGAIN,aku will just walk out of this friendship! You guys mean so much to me! So please DON'T do it AGAIN! Phm? (: ]

[And we guys deserve someone BETTER! So just go fly kite!]

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky

2010-01-27T11:57:00.005+08:00

Institution	Term	Career	Course	Application Number	Application Date (MM/DD/YYYY)



Institute of Tech. Education	2010 April	ITE Education	Nitec Culinary Skills (W)	00516913	01/12/2010 (MM/DD/YYYY)

We refer to your application for the above course. You have been shortlisted for an interview for the Culinary Skills (Western) course at CW-CT campus. A letter has also been sent to you to notify you of the date and time of the interview which is scheduled between Thursday, January 28, 2010 and Friday, January 29, 2010. If you do not receive the letter by Wednesday, January 27, 2010, please call your posted campus office at 64111260 to check the date and time for your interview. If you do not attend the interview, you will be deemed to have forfeited the training place and it will offered to other eligible applicants appealing for a place in the course.

I GOT IT!!
But now i'm thinking am i willing to wake up super early for this.
I'm no longer that sure. haiz!
I got what i want but ow i'm just being fickle minded!
AHHHH!
FUCK IT laaaaaaa!
I seriously don't what to do!
Help?
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky

2010-01-27T00:32:00.008+08:00

Girlfriend says " ever since you start working you don't look nice!
Due to lack of sleep and your eye bag is so damn obvious!"

I'm still awake at this time and meeting baby in the morning later on.
Then she'll talk about my eye bag yet again.
But i still love you,love!
You're my sweetest addiction/crime/drug/love/just name it and it's you! (:

ElfieSky ♥ MunnLight

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky

2010-01-26T16:56:00.009+08:00

That Day...

Outing with them,turned out just fine.
It was awesome shit!
First met Aqid at kallang then off we go to Kallang Leisure Park.
To buy my slippers baybeh!
Check it out!

Its REEEEEEEEED baybeh!
Favourite colour lagi!
WOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!
Okay,i'm no longer working,so for now i'm officially BROKE! (:

Met up with the others at 4 and proceeded to Grandlink for our karaoke session
After that went to Mr Teh Tarik to have our dinner.
Then we were off to sheeshaaaaa!
Oh well,baby couldn't tag along for the sheesha.
I've upload the picts at FB and TG.

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky. .

2010-01-22T11:56:00.006+08:00

Oh Brother!

Friends are busy schooling while i'm at home doing nothing.
Go out,'Job hunt' a.k.a lepak,home and nothing else.
I'm no longer working cuz da mls.
I've already set aside money for my license.

Yesterday was our third month anni!
Met up with aqid first,kononnye nk gi carik keje.
As usual aku bangun lambat! hahahaha!
Then headed to paya lebar to eat banquet but we ended up eating KFC.
Met up with baby at PR.
Thought of watching a movie but Tiara was late.
So instead lepak kat daerah loyang point!

Today meeting baby again!
Weeeee~
Karaoke then to shisha!
With new found friends!
Can't wait!

New Found Friends!
Weeeee~

Okay,aku nk mandi!

Yours Sincerely;

And not forgetting AqidFRED who's not in the pic!

ElfieSky

2010-01-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

On the other hand,i can't wait for tmr's outing!

2010-01-16T22:00:00.001+08:00

Favourite Girl . . .

I always knew you were the best
The coolest girl I know
So prettier than all the rest
The star of my show
So many times I wished you'd be the one for me
I never knew It'd get like this, girl,
What did ya do to me

You're who I'm thinking of
Girl, you aint my runner up
And no matter what you're always number one

(Chorus)
My prized possession, one and only
Adore ya, girl I want ya
The one I can't live without
That's you, that's you
You're my special little lady
The one that makes me crazy
Of all the girls I've ever known
It's you, it's you

My favorite, my favorite, my favorite
My favorite girl. my favorite girl

You're used to going out your way
To impress these Mr. Wrongs
But you can be yourself with me,
I'll take you as you are
I know they said believe in love,
Is a dream that can't be real
So girl lets write a fairy tale,
And show 'em how we feel

You're who I'm thinking of
Girl, you aint my runner up
And no matter what your always number one

(Chorus)
My prized possession, one and only
I adore ya, girl I want ya
The one I can't live without
That's you, that's you
Your my special little lady
The one that makes me crazy
Of all the girls I've ever known
It's you, it's you

My favorite, my favorite, my favorite
My favorite girl. my favorite girl

You take my breath away
With everything you say
I just wanna be with you,
My baby, my baby, ohhhh
My Miss don't play no games,
Treats you no other way,
Than you deserve
'Cause you're the girl of my dreams

(Chorus)
My prized possession, one and only
Adore ya, girl I want ya
The one I can't live without
That's you, that's you
You're my special little lady
The one that makes me crazy
Of all the girls I've ever known
It's you, it's you
Ohhh, ohhhh
I want you ohhhh
It's you, it's you

My favorite, my favorite, my favorite
My favorite girl. my favorite girl
It's you

You're the one i love...

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky

2010-01-13T21:58:00.005+08:00

Bad Romance...

To those whose wondering where i am now,
I'm nowhere! (:
Neither O's nor Ite.
Working!
Money makes the world go round baybeh!
And i'm saving up for my bike!
Weeeee~

Been toning alot lately with new friends.
And duit buang kat cab! hahaha!
Actually aku tkde pape nk update.
Saje jer nk buang2 mase! haha!
K i'm off to play TheSims3!
Byeeeeeeee!

And oh,I love MUNIRAH JAAFAR! (:

No one can irritates me the way she does.
No one can make me mad the way she does.
No one can make me trust them the way she does.
No one can make me smile the way she does.
No one can make me laugh the way she does.
No one can make me go crazy the way she does.
No one can make me listen to them the way she does
[okay,even though sometimes i don't.hehe]
No one can force me to do things the way she does.
No one can care for me the way she does.
No one can love me the way she does.
No one can be more perfect than her.
Munirah,my world revolves around you. (:
And no one can make me love anyone the way i love her! (:

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky

2009-12-28T13:21:00.004+08:00

What about now?

Currently at love's place.
She's helping me to dye my hair.
Thanks!
But she's like so GANAS!
Putus rambot!
Haha.
But i love you la,irritating ass! hee~

Going to watch Alvin later on. . .

Till here then.

New year Resolution;To be with you. . .

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky. . .

2009-12-27T00:51:00.004+08:00

The last something that meant something. . .

You can run but you can never hide.
Mark my words.
Its just the fact you have to accept.
Like it or not,you dont have a choice.
Neither do i.
This wasn't then path that i chose.
No turning back.
All i can do now is move forward and look at all the beautiful things in life at a slower pace.
Everything have change.
The people i hang out with.
That perfect one.
And me.
Nothing good last forever,remember?
I'll be patiently waiting for that day you'll say 'its time. this is where my life begins'
I would smile to you,walk away and never turn back.
It would only hurt even more if i were to turn and look at you for the second time.
All i could do is whisper i love you and wish you could hear it as i walk away.
For now,i'll just get myself ready.
2009 had been a roller coster ride for me
Losing her.
Making new friends.
Found love.[munn]
And leading a happy life as 2009 is ending.

That's all.

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky. . .

2009-12-26T10:48:00.005+08:00

R-E-W-I-N-D!

211209;

For the first time in my fucking life i went ice skating!
And we had a little race at the arcade before that.
Oh well,guess who got 1st?
Need i say more? haha
Went there with mira,mash and definitely love!
I had a hard time trying to skate.
Love was being so nice by accompanying me through out
even though i was like slower than a tortoise? haha
I had alot of fun despite losing the tickets!
Being with them can make my day go GUGUGAGA!

251209;

Slept pretty late [going to 4am] the day before cuz was busy looking for seats to watch avatar.
Woke up at 9 and texted love.
Met love around 1 then off we went to Cathay Cinelesuire.
Our movie starts at 3.45 so we decided to have lunch at pasta mania!
Overall the movie was awesome shit!
Humans should go watch it!
Can't wait for the next movie on monday with love and friends!
Alvin here we come!
Weee~

Love,i love you.

Your Sincerely;;

ElfieSky. . .

2009-12-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

T-W-O! (:

One more hour to go baby!
Two months.
Eventhough stakat jer,kiter pelan2 kayoh k?
I love you.
Thanks for being patient with me.
Thanks for loving me.
Thanks for making me get irritated.
Thanks for making me fall for you. (:
Thanks for still being by my side.

We'll go thru everything.
Nothing will make me drift away from you.
My heart is yours to take,to break,to love.

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky. . .

2009-12-20T01:35:00.013+08:00

Shawty got the melody...

I don't have much to blog about.
I've got my result yesterday. . .
Supposed to like report to school by 2.15
But we all came in at 3.
Biase jugak,JIWER 414[retains]!
Its farewell now,friends.
All the best in the future.
I'm sorry for everything.
Wee~
And oh,i had a little race with mash to Cathay at somerset.
*kening up up!

On the other hand,i'm getting my pay on MONDAY!
Let's go shopping baybeh!
Let's go ION!
Bershka here i come!
I'm so sure i'm gonna spent money like running tap water!
Just the shoe i wanna buy cost $60+.
And i saw this awesome belt that cost like $45!
Clothes cost like $30+ each.
OMFG! I need to save my money!
Stop spending like money pluck on trees can!
GRR~
Let my girlf hold my atm card also no use.
I'm still gonna spend!
WALAU!!
But its my hard earn money!
I should pamper myself with it!
Oh and not forgetting girlf.
Haha!

Ice skating on monday!
Shopping on monday!
Alvin and the chipmunks on the 28th!
More money being use!
Tsk!

I know i'm sucha spendthrift.
Even girlf can't control me.
Its kinda cute when she keep scolding me when i buy unnecessary stuff!
And i keep on asking for her permission but when she say no,i still buy!
Make your blood go up up kan baby?
But you still love me kan?
Haha!
I love you la short!
haha

I NEED A HAIRCUT!
Its so thick!
I'm just gonna trim it.
Lenght maintain.
So it'll still be long. (:
And i might considered closing my left ear extensions!
Cuz my right ear is hurting when i want to extend it!
Asswipe!
I MIGHT only.
Hee~

Monday i'll meet you k.
Tmr penat la sgt nk kluar!
Nk tdo whole day!
Wee~

[you're the best damn thing!]

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky (:

2009-12-16T17:15:00.003+08:00

Meeting girlf now~
Will update at night.

I swear you're the sweetest damn thing! (:

2009-12-12T21:17:00.003+08:00

7-11! (:

Now,i really can't bear to stop working.
Haiz.
I don't even know why i'm looking forward to go to work.
It happened just recently when i'm about to quit.
Sucha ass!
Grr~
But oh well,i really enjoy those moments at work with everyone. (:

Oh,i don't care about whatever is happening out of work place.
None of my concern.
I'm happy at work and after work go home/meet girlf.
Life is simple so why make it so complicated?
Weeeee~

I miss you~

Yours Sincerely;

ElfieSky

2009-12-03T23:03:00.003+08:00

That Conversation...

Lovergirl;eh,asl muke you laen?
Me;laen? aper yg laen sei? 3 hari tk jumper jer laen per?
Lovergirl;tk la. you mcm maken gelap gitu.
Me;huh? agaknyer keje ah [thinking of all the possible reasons]
Lovergirl;you keje kat bwh sun ker?
Me;bler time break kan i isap rkk. kan bwh sun per.

Few minutes later...

Lovergirl;now i know whats diff! Your EYEBAG!!
Me;WTH la! i thought what sei!
Both; HAHAHAHA!

I really thought i was getting darker seii.
And i had to think of all the possible reasons.
You can be sucha ass at times!
But i love you!

To you;

Remember i used to say that i can never love any other girl the way i love you?
Yes,its true.
You know why?
Cuz i love MUNIRAH JAAFAR more than i've ever loved you.
Don't blame me for not keeping my promise to wait for you.
Don't blame me for moving on.
I'm just doing what you did long before i start to let go.
Thanks for letting me go.
I'm thankful for that.
Cuz of that i found someone better than you in every way.
You'll just remain a memory in my heart.
Everything is still the same except for the fact we both have move on.
Be it painful,hurtful,happy and ect,everything will be left just as memories that i won't forget.
Thanks for everything.
First love are hard to forget but i will forget about it eventually.
120608 will never be a part of me anymore.
Goodbye! ;)

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie Sky

2009-12-02T00:35:00.003+08:00

Don't Let Me Go...

[01/12/09]

Went to fetch love at dhoby ghaut after work.
Spent time with her.
And i really enjoy every second with her by myside.
I just wish that time would stop whenever i'm with her.
Haiz!
My heart feel so heavy everytime we have to go our seperate ways.
I wanna meet you every single day provided i'm not tired la.
I love you,baby!
Thanks for everything!
Can't wait for swimming with love and friends!
Weeee~

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie Sky

2009-12-02T00:22:00.015+08:00

A Walk In The Park....

[30/11/09]

After work went to meet love at her place.
Like finally we meet eh!
Three days straight we didn't get to meet.
After watching her play the comp,we decided to have a walk at ecp.
Weeeee~

I LOVE YOU! (:

[Mcm budak kecik keper. hee~]

[Mine]

[Hers]

[Ours]

[elfie's!]

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie Sky...

2009-11-27T20:38:00.029+08:00

Another Day;Another Story...

2012 with NORSUZILAH BTE ABDUL RAHMAN on wednesday was awesome!
No regrets watching it.
It did made me feel like repenting.
Oh well,it takes time. (:
As usual,I'm always the late one. (:
It was a day to remember cuz its been a long time since i last saw her,
and i don't even know if I'll get to see her anytime soon.
I don't wish to elaborate any further cuz as usual,I'm lazy. (:

Next wtill be New Moon with dearest baby. (:

Picturesss..

2009-11-22T23:13:00.004+08:00

The Best Damn Thing!

Finally! I'm done Re-creating my blog!
Sorry for those who i didn't link cuz i lost your links.
So yeah! Weeeee~

Been out almost everyday.
Work;lepaks;Girlf..
(:

Pictures will be uploaded SOON.
When I'm not lazy. hee~

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie Sky

2009-11-07T21:39:00.003+08:00

211009...

Today went to meet up with baby then she accompanied me go dye my hair.
Yes,i dye it yet again!
Thanks for waiting patiently for 3hrs!
I love you baby!
I know its not the colour that you're expecting but i love the colour.
Sorry baby.
I'm loving my hair now! Wee~
And and,i will keep my hair long just for you okay? (:
No longer a typical mat hair!
I'm a modern baybeh! haha

I know I've said things to hurt you.
I'm sorry for that.
But it won't change the fact the I'm starting to fall for you.
Give me time alright?
And please accept me for who i am.
I love you. (:

15 November is the day I'm looking forward too.
Ton-ing with beloved brothers yaww!
Weeeeeeeeeeee~!

Your Sincerely;

Elfieeeeeee

2009-11-07T11:02:00.003+08:00

Never say never....

Everything's happening so fast now.
I just don't know what I'm doing.
Was it a mistake or i just need a little more time to accept the fact?
I don't feel good about it.
I know this is not who i am.
I don't wish to hurt anyone.

211009

I kept hurting you with my words and actions but you still stayed by my side.
Even after knowing all my bad habits,you didn't mind.
You accepted all the things that I've done in the past.
I just had to tell you cuz i don't wanna be like her who keeps living in denial.
I wanna be truthful to you
I wanna be faithful to you
I wanna be the one making you smile
I wanna be a better person for you
I wanna be the only one that you love
And lastly i wanna be a good girlf to you.
Nobody's perfect but i could atleast try right?

Your's Sincerely;

Elfie.

2009-10-22T00:11:00.002+08:00

Some word are better left unspoken...

K.A.K! [Saper yg tau,good for you guys!]

Aku syg krg smuer like serious shit.
Just krg la brothers aku! haha

[CIKO!]

[KECIK!]

[MUS!]

[NIK!]

[DIDI!]

[ZAKEE!]

[Brothers hidup mati nyer! haha!]

[MUNN!] The one that captured my heart. (:

Yours Sincerely;

ELFIE!

2009-10-22T00:09:00.002+08:00

I'll update a proper one during the weekend!
Busy working and lepak-ing! haha!

2009-10-21T23:50:00.012+08:00

Some word are better left unspoken...

Kite-Anti-K[fill in the blank sendiri! haha]

Aku syg krg smuer like serious shit.
Just krg la brothers aku! haha

[CIKO!]

[KECIK!]

[MUS!]

[NIK!]

[DIDI!]

[ZAKEE!]

[Brothers hidup mati nyer! haha!]

[MUNN!] The one that captured my heart. (:

Yours Sincerely;

ELFIE!

2009-10-17T14:55:00.003+08:00

You've kidnapped by heart.
Please return it so i can love another.

Give me time alright.
I love you. (:
I promise i won't take bike license.
Just like you,i need time too.
The time will come. (:
First proper date after i get my pay k? (:

Your Sincerely;

Elfie Star! [MUNN! (:]

2009-10-03T03:27:00.001+08:00

Date: 08/25/2008 8:58 pm

Subject: Im sorry!!

Message:

Hey D..Haha..Im soriee for everything..I know i have break ur heart that deep..Im reali3 soriee..I still have a feelings for you but it just that im now are really2 concentrating on my studies..So there's no time for me to think bout the r/s..So hope u understand what im telling u now..Please3!!!!DON'T THINK OTHER WAY AS IN NEGATIVELY...FAVOUR UHK!!! Hopefully u will forgive me 1 day...Truly2 sorry for what i have done..=( Yeah but we are still "TEMAN TAPI MESRA KAN" like what u told me just now...=)) Till here by now...Bye..

Do text me back..

*_B STILL LOVING D NO MATTER WHAT..!!_*

*_B WILL MISSED D VERY THE MUCH..!!_*

*******REMEMBER THAT*******

Memories...

2009-09-27T15:35:00.016+08:00

26.o9.o9

Went out raya with Km2.
Pictures will do the talking.
Aku malas. Hee!

[couples of the day! haha!]

[Gyeah!]

[She's just awesomely cute!]

[us. (: ]

[The ladies]

[The guys]

The others in FB.
Okay Go!

Kodok,get well soon. (:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie

2009-09-27T15:01:00.014+08:00

24.o9.o9

Met up with mus and went for her friend open house.
Phobia2 was awesome shit! (:

25.o9.o9

Meet up with friends.
Slacked,talk,pictures and home.
At night went to meet kecik and all.

Let the pictures do the talking. (:

There's alot more but i'm too lazy to upload it here.
Its in my facebook.
Who have it go seeeee. (:

Your Sincerely;

Elfie

2009-09-19T15:12:00.015+08:00

Fuck You Fuckers? (:

Besok raye!
Sungguh TAK excited sakk!
Da tue confirm collection sikit! haha!
Oh,i got a kitten! (:
Okay da tk tau aper nk type.
Letak gambar pun baek.

[ Happy Family! (: ]

[Bapak ayam? haha!]

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-09-19T14:05:00.005+08:00

Bring it on... (:

I had the time of my life yesterday!
Eventhough i shouldn't have done what i did.
But still,i feel good! (:
It was my fault cuz i entertain immature ppl like you.
But you didn't leave me with any choice.
If i were to just keep quite,you might think i'm afraid of you.
Well,I'm NOT!
So don't even think of it!
You're nothing to me la.
Please eh,grow up!
Thank you!
I'm waiting for you to come and find me.
Remember my name!
Oh,i'm staying at bedok!
So feel free to come k?
Rinnie,i meant every single word that i said to you yesterday.
At that very staircase you left me six month ago.
I've said what need to be said.
I've proven what need to be proven.
So rinnie,you wanted a fanatic and daring girlf right?
So do i qualify now?
You know me well and i've never lay my hands on anyone.
There's a first time for EVERYTHING,right? (:
Because of you i become someone that doesn't think before doing stuff.
Happy now? (:
I hope you are. Weeeeeeeeee!

And kawan yang luper members blh jln ah!
Aku tk perlu krg sebagai kawan aku ah!
Dulu kau susah saper sia kau carik?!
Ingat ah sial!
Aku jugak per!
Abeh skrg gini mcm?!
Gi mampos ah sial!

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie (:

2009-09-19T02:46:00.003+08:00

Flirting is an expression of sexuality and a common form of social interaction whereby one person obliquely indicates a romantic or sexual interest towards another. It can consist of conversation, body language, or brief physical contact. It may be one-sided or reciprocated (encouraged).
Flirting may involve speaking and acting in a way that suggests greater intimacy than is generally considered appropriate to the relationship (or to the amount of time the two people have known each other), without actually saying or doing anything that breaches any serious social norms. This may be accomplished by communicating a sense of playfulness or irony. Double entendres, with one meaning more formally appropriate and another more suggestive, may be used.

This is the meaning of FLIRTING to those immatures who doesn't know what it means!
A kick on the leg and a hit on the forehead is NOT part of it.
Understand CHILDREN?

I'll update properly in the afternoon.

Yours Sincerely;

ELFIE!

[Remeber my name well!]

2009-09-13T01:33:00.000+08:00

I'll give up.
Be happy,kodok.

Yours Sincerely;

Fiee

2009-09-01T20:06:00.002+08:00

Why...

I'm back to where i started!
It took me so long to finally get back up.
It takes just yesterday to make me fall hard to the ground again!
I woke up today with tears in my eyes.
I just can't explain how i'm feeling right now.
Its been so long since i last shed my tears for you.
Why did you make me this weak!
I can't take it!
I hate being in this situation!
I hate everything!
I hate being so weak!
I hate being me!!
But i will never hate you.
My heart's aching real bad!
Please,no more.
Once is enough.

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-09-01T17:16:00.007+08:00

Everything is changing...

Yesterday when i saw you,me heart sank.
What surprise me was the person beside you.
That's the one you left me for?
Okay,i'll admit defeat.
Without you knowing i was crying inside the bus.
No matter how hard i tried to control it,i just couldn't.
And i wipe my tears with that very tissue that you gave me.
You stopped me from saying anything about the past.
I did.
I don't know why i still obeyed you even after all the hurt you've put me through.
No matter how bad i am,i just can't bring myself to hurt you.
I don't wish to destroy your happiness.
That was why i kept quite and acted like nothing had ever happen btwn us.
After all the hurt,i'm still thinking about your happiness.
I guess i just can't bring myself to hurt you and make you sad.
So i wish you all the best.
I was always the bad guy and you never gave me a chance to be your friend.
Its okay.
You'll always have a bad impression on me.
But yesterday i've prove you wrong!
If i really am what you think i am,i would have told your gf that i was your ex but i didnt.
Cuz i didn't want to upset you.
Why am i still thinking about your happiness when you destroyed mine?
I guess its just me.
I just can't do it.
Even if i want to hurt you,i know i won't have to heart to do it.

It wasn't easy for me.
But,i'll be fine.
Even after all this been said,its you who i love not her.
So yeah.
Just by hearing your voice yesterday made me feel better.
No matter what happen i won't forget the number.
I'm sincerely waiting.
So yeah.

Its been so long since i last when to KC.
Met alot of people and obviously i received alot of hugs!
YAY! hahaha!
Saw maya and she 'forced' me to go for 12 sept performance.
Ala,malas nyerrrrr!
But i've promised so no choice!
Grr!

N level is next week!
Let's get fucked up and die!
YAY!

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-08-30T02:19:00.006+08:00

Things happen for a reason...

Sometimes i wonder why i bother.
Knowing that the outcome will still be the same.
Maybe i just don't know when to give up.
Am i really back to reality or still living in denial?
I just can't think straight now.

Are things starting to change again or am i just getting paranoid?
Getting paranoid is annoying!
It really kills the brain cell!
I should stop caring and lead my own life.
Well,noone had ever really care about me so why should i?
I don't wish to continue it here.
I'll just type it out at private blog.(:
Haiz.

I'm tired but i can't sleep.
Alot of things are bothering my mind now.
I can't seem to stop thinking about stuff.
Stuff that's supposed to be important but it has lost its meaning now.
Haiz.

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie..

2009-08-30T01:15:00.003+08:00

N...

What the fuck is wrong with me?!
It seems like my feelings are gone.
I don't even know what's the correct feeling to feel.
And because of that,i made someone cry yet again!
I'm sorry.
It wasn't meant to make you cry.
Maybe my way of saying stuff is too harsh for you.
Its for your own good.
I don't want you to feel what i felt!
The reason i said/sing those pathetic stuff is because i understand how you feel.
Its not because i'm being unreasonable.
Come on la,i've never been unreasonable.
And i have my reasons for everything i do or say.
So please don't ever think i'm picking on you cuz I'm not.
Be happy,friend. (:
And AKU TAK LOKEK ROKOK!
Kan kawan-kawan? (:
hahaha!

Less than a week.
I really have no sense of urgency.
Fuck shit!
Told ya,i'm heartless.
I've been skipping school eventhough its getting nearer.
I should take a gun and shot myself.
Okay,exaggerating! haha!
Chill ah,fail pun limit2 ITE perr. (:
FUCK!

Fuckers like you deserve to die!
You really make my blood boils!
I don't know why i'm getting mad over nothing!
You're annoying,fuck!
I really can't stand your attitude!
I admit i'm worse than you cuz i did alot of things without thinking.
But that was in the past!
Now,i can definitely say that eventhough i'm not perfect i'm way better than you.
Oh please,you're not perfect la swine!
So don't act like you are!
I've had enough.
Don't make me do things i don't wish to do.
Stop making it sound like you're better than everyone when the fact is they're way better than you in every single way!
You wanna talk shit about me?
Please feel free to say it infront of my face.
Cuz i definately have ALOT to say to you,fuck! (:
Have a nice day!

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-08-30T00:48:00.001+08:00

Gone and done..

Privated.

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-08-29T01:51:00.001+08:00

You're nothing but a big fake!
FUCK YOU FUCKER!
What wrong have i done that you had to destroy my name!
You're just a bitch with no life!
GO GET ONE!
You go around telling lies about me to your friends!!
Just what the hell is wrong with you?!
Are you sick in the mind??!!
You deserve to be alone!
What type of person makan kawan sendiri?
YOU LA! Its obvious!
You're crap la!
Please GROW UP!
Stop wasting EVERYONE's time!
And read this properly!
I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOU!
IN FACT I WOULD BE HAPPY IF YOU MEET ME AND TELL ME STRAIGHT TO MY FACE WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM WITH ME?!
Only CHILDREN like YOU would do sucha thing!
Be brave and own up la,fuck!
I swear you're annoying!
Who's the kental one now??
Don't act like as if you're one big fuck when the fact is you're NOTHING!
And one things for sure, I HATE YOUR GUTS!

CB!

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-08-29T00:59:00.006+08:00

Can i hate you?

This few days been studying hard for my combine humanities.
I don't even know why i bother.
When the outcome will be the same.
I was never good at it but i guess i should just give it a try for someones sake.
Maybe in the end i might just be all talk and no action. haiz.

Everyday is the same routine.
Out of the house in the afternoon and be back around midnight.
Study,study,study.
I don't even know if everything is going inside my head!
I don't wish to disappoint you but i know my own weakness.
Grr.
I wanna fly kite! Jom!

I swear i don't regret knowing them!
They're the sweetest!
I was under the void deck alone studying when they came down and brought food for me!
Sweet per krg!
Eventhough i ate a little,it was nice.
Thanks!

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-08-29T00:53:00.002+08:00

Nothing was ever true...

I don't know what or who to believe.
My eyes or my ears?
Whatever it is,i have no say.
Its your life.
I'll wish you all the best in everything.

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-08-27T17:52:00.003+08:00

It's never too late...

I'm gonna work damn hard!
I will pass my N level!
I will pass my SS!
By hook or by crook i will do my best!!!
I don't wanna fail!
I know its for my own good but I'm not doing it for myself.
I'm doing it for you!
I'll pass my comb humans for you! (:
I'm willing to do anything for you.
Okay,i'm off to do my SS now. (:

I'll wait for you....

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-08-27T17:51:00.004+08:00

ilove.... (:

When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy stops arguing,
He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine" after a
pause
he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do

When your laying your head on a guy's
chest,
he has the world

When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday,
he is in love

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-08-23T15:52:00.001+08:00

The Promise...

If you need a friend,
don't look to a stranger,
You know in the end,
I'll always be there.

And when you're in doubt,
and when you're in danger,
Take a look all around,
and I'll be there.

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
But if you'll wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will.

When your day is through,
and so is your temper,
You know what to do,
I'm gonna always be there.

Sometimes if I shout,
it's not what's intended.
These words just come out,
with no gripe to bear.

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
But if you'll wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
And if I had to walk the world, I'd make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will.

I gotta tell ya, I need to tell ya, I gotta tell ya, I gotta tell yaaaa ...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
But if you'll wait around a while, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you...

I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
And if I had to walk the world, I'd make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will ...
I will...
I will...
I will

2009-08-23T01:03:00.002+08:00

'my feels for you had gone way far long already .. Am already moving on .. Yes, am trying to forget almost everything about us'

I just had to ask.
Now,its crashing down all over again like it first did.
The truth really hurt i guess.
All along it was just a game.
You were waiting for it to 'gameover' when you've had your fun.
I guess now i know where i stand.
I sorry for making you suffer for eight months.
I'm happy that its all over now.
Somehow it doesn't hurt as how i thought it would.
You know why?
Cuz now someone else means more to me than you ever did.
Thanks for all the wonderful memories we had.
To me it is wonderful but i don't think you'll take it that way.
No matter how hard it is,i will forget you eventually.
Its taking longer than i expect.

Goodbye;

Elfie..

2009-08-23T00:39:00.002+08:00

Hey,i will always be there for you.
No matter what happens i'll always be by your side.
Cheer up okay,kodok? (:
I wanted to text you saying this since you don't feel like talking.
BUT my prepaid is low. hee.
So yeah.
You know if you need anyone to talk to,i'm just a miss call away. (:
You take care of yourself okay. (:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie..

2009-08-21T21:03:00.008+08:00

Old Times..

Musfirah Dewie,aku rindu kau sangat2! haha!
Okay,that's super gay! haha!
Remember what we did at the staircase? haha!
You know,i know,public dunno! haha!
Its not something dirty okay! haha!
And i'm chatting with that swine now... (:

[partner in CRIME!]

Two days of absence from school is AWESOME!
Awesome my ass!
N level in NINETEEN more days and i'm still relaxing!
Baek perrrrr!
*kening up up*

Fasting Month is here AGAIN.
I wiss i can fast for one FULL month.
But knowing that i'm a....it'll be hard! haha!

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie..

2009-08-19T18:12:00.002+08:00

Used To Be...

I can't seem to get a piece of mind
Cuz its running through my mind all the time
I cant really help it
This is so confusing yeah
I cant understand it
No no

Do you remember when we promised each other to stay forever in love
Hey girl you stepped on the promise you did the ugliest thing I could think of yeah
Tell me how could I let it go

You used to be my everything
I used to be your only thing
We used to be unseparable
We couldn't spend the nights away
You used to be my melody
You used to mean the world to me
You didn't even say that you were sorry sorry

I cant seem to get you out of my head
Cus the echoes is left from the pain u said
Feeling kinda helpless
Nobody to talk to no
Shit is really endless
Yea yea

Do you remember when we promised each other to stay forever in love
Hey girl you stepped on the promise you did the ugliest thing I could think of yea
Tell me how can I let it go

You used to be my everything
I used to be your only thing
We used to be unseparable
We couldn't spend the nights away
You used to be my melody
You used to mean the world to me
You didn't even say that you were sorry sorry

Situations gone bad
And you're the one that's mad
How come; im the one that ripped you apart
Cant believe that you would try to push this to the side
How come im the one that ripped you apart
Noo

Do you remember when we promised each other to stay forever in love
Hey then you stepped on the promise you did the ugliest thing I could think of
Tell me how can I let it go

You used to be my everything
I used to be your only thing
We used to be unseparable
We couldn't spend the nights away
You used to be my melody
You used to mean the world to me
You didn't even say that you were sorry sorry
_________________
It´s too late to apologize...

2009-08-19T17:23:00.004+08:00

Sad Story...

Aku tidak mampu menghadapi semua ini. Apakah semua ini salah aku? Salahkah aku menyintainya? Adakah itu satu dosa yang besar? Aku sering termenung di bilik darjah apabila guru sedang mengajar dan ia kelihatan seperti badan ku sahaja yang berada di situ tetapi roh ku telah mengalih tempat. Kelakuan ini telah menjejaskan pelajaran aku. Aku sedar akan perubahan atas diriku ini. Ujian peringkat N akan bermula dalam masa dua-puluh hari. Aku belum sedia! Aku belum mula mengulangaji! Apakah ia sudah terlambat untuk ku? Kenapa wajahmu harus bermain-main di minda ku? Kenapa hanya engkau yang mampu membuat aku seumpama tidak bernyawa?! Aku keliru atas kehendak dan kelakuan ku! Apakah yang aku harus lakukan dalam masa yang singkat ini? Bukan pilihan ku untuk menyayangi mu tetapi apa daya ku? Semua telah berlaku tanpa kesedaran diriku ini. Aku tidak seperti dahulu,manusia yang selalu cerah dan bising sudah menjadi pendiam dan tidak tentu arah.Inikah kuasa CINTA? Kalau begitu aku tidak ingin sekali bercinta lagi. Cukuplah penderitaan ku sampai disini. Aku tidak kuat lagi untuk menukar takdir ku yang sudah diatur. Perubahanmu amat menyedihkan diriku. Aku sedar akan kedudukan ku di dalam hidup mu. Aku bukan siapa-siapa bagi mu. Hanya satu yang aku harapkan ia agar kau bahagia di samping kekasihmu. Aku meminta maaf jika adakalanya kata-kata kasar terlepas dari mulutku kepada mu dan keatas perbuatan ku kepade dirimu. Harap dimaafkan. Perkataan benci tidak pernah wujud di hidupku,janganlah kau mengambil kesempatan ini dan mempermainkan aku sekali lagi. Cukup sampai disini. Kau amat mengecewakan ku. Kau adalah kisah silam ku yang tidak akan aku dapat lupakan. Luka di hatiku tidak akan aku lupa! Kau sudah mempermainkan aku berkali-kali! Janganlah langkah masuk dalam hidup ku lagi! Aku tidak mampu menjalani peristiwa itu untuk kali yang..keberapa pun aku tidak ingat kerana kau sudah berulang-ulang kali mengecewakan diriku. Pergilah kau jauh dari hidup ku untuk selama-lamanya!

Okay! Too much reading malay novel! haha!
It's just a make up story! haha!
So GYEAH! (:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie..

2009-08-19T17:02:00.007+08:00

UPDATES! (:

Alot of things happend and i was too busy to blog.
So now i'm too lazy to blog.
Let's just put pictures. (:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie..

2009-08-01T19:52:00.006+08:00

I can't deny the fact i'm happy now!

I feel relieve after letting everything go.
And i won't look back ever again!
I feel good doing this!
Finally i can get back to reality!
GYEAH!
And and I'm addicted to the song COOKIE JAR!

[Travis:]
Hahaha You know what it is
Gym class heroes, the dream
It's hard to look innocent when I got cookie crumbs all over my face and shit

[Chorus:]
[The Dream:]
I like girls
They like me
They look so good
In they seven jeans
want you to be the one
And my only
I wanna be faithful
But I can't keep my hands out the cookie jar.
[Travis:]
My hands, my hands, my ha uh my hands
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands my hands out the cookie jar.

[Travis:]
You see I got this problem
I need help tryna solve it
Cause meeting after meeting and I'm still a cookie whore You can hide em, Imma find them, on the counter, in the closet
And I'll say I ain't do it with my face covered in chocolate
My girl be setting booby traps
To catch me eating Scooby snacks
I left crumbs in the bed once
But I told her I was through with that
She still don't be believing me
And I guess that I'm cool with that
But I got a sweet tooth, that'll never come loose
And the truth of the matter is.

[Chorus:]
[The Dream:]
I like girls,
They like me
They look so good
In they seven jeans
want you to be the one
And my only
I wanna be faithful
But I can't keep my hands out the cookie jar
[Travis:]
My hands, my hands, my ha uh my hands
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, muh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands my hands out the cookie jar.

[Travis:]
I got a thing for Milano, Biscotti Italianos
And I never turn down some Oreos if you got one
Butter Pecan Puerto Rican,
Or them Oatmeal Raisin Asians.
Hazelnut Brazilians,
Macadamia Caucasians,
Double stuffed or thin mint
It don't matter you getting it
Cause I got a sweet tooth that'll never come loose
And the fact of the matter is.

[Chorus:]
[The Dream:]
I like girls,
They like me
They look so good
In they seven jeans
want you to be the one
And my only
I wanna be faithful
But I can't keep my hands out the cookie jar
[Travis:]
My hands, my hands, my ha uh my hands
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands my hands out the cookie jar.

[Travis:]
I'm a monster for these cookies
I'm a beast for they treats
An animal for they crackers
Head to feet they so damn sweet
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my ha-uh my
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my hands out the cookie jar.

[Travis:]
And there you have it haha
I tried my best
I went to cookie anonymous
I guess I'm a failure
I can't seem to keep my damn hands out the cookie jar but,
It is what it is
Freak

I'm going to continue doing my art now.
So BYEEEEE! (:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

2009-08-01T19:36:00.004+08:00

Message to ALL.. (:

Hajjar,you've seen me through everything,you know how bad my temper is but you never leave me and were always there to cheer me up with you silly jokes and reactions. Aku sayang kau laa hajjar! Only you know my BIG plans! hehehe. Evil BUT who cares. (:

Eunice,thanks for colouring that rainbow just because i said there's no colours in my life. It was sweet of you but i was down that day and you didn't manage to finish it cuz i wanted to leave. Thanks for the thoughts aites. (:

Rinnie,you can forget me for all i care okay? I kept wondering why i can't forget you? Why i can't let our memories go? Why i can't get on with life. I only realise today after reading my sent item. It was all because i promised you that i won't leave you and I'll wait for you no matter how long it takes. That was why i guess. Cuz I'm a man of my word BUT as of today,I'm taking back all of my words and I'm not gonna keep any of my promises anymore. Why should i bother to keep my promises when you kept breaking ALL of yours. So yeah! And stop making it sound like as if its ALL my fault for the break up when it was you who wanted it. Its OUR fault,remember? (: Have a happy life. Thanks for everything. I am moving on and leaving everything behind,including you. This is NOT semangat sesaat! I've made up my mind! I'm not the old Elfie. (: IF you wanna stay as friends then I'm okay with it but if you chose to treat me as a stranger[that's what you're doing now],I'll be more than happy to do the same! (:It was nice knowing you anw. And i don't hold grudges. So yeah. Last long with whoever. (:

This words was what made me came back to reality and realise i don't need all this shit.
"you know she's the one that destroy your friendship with the three of them and everything,you still want to be with her?!"this was said by qaniah. Thanks alot! You really brought me back to reality! Thank you so much! Eventhough alot of people have been saying the same thing,this was the only one that made me realise! I guess it was because they told me in the 'beat around the bush' kinda way. So yeah! (:

Ryan,I'm sorry for being sucha ass. And i know I've hurt you and disappoint you too many times. I'm changing. I won't be the old me. I promise you. I just want to sit and talk to you but i don't have the courage too. So for now i think it's best for me to stay far away from you. Thanks for being a wonderful friend.

Affie,thanks for everything. I know everyone wants me to change. I will! I've already changed but its just that you didn't realise it. Its okay. My fault,i know. Be happy.

Fathol,i really don't know what to say to you. Maybe I've hurt you too without knowing. I'm sorry if i did. Thanks for everything.

I've never been so weak. I thought losing rinnie was the most hurtful thing ever but i was wrong. Losing you guys was the most hurtful experience i ever had. Till now I'm going through it. Its my fault,i know. I'm sorry.

Suzie,thanks for being a nice friend. Take care. Have a happy life. (:

Elyssa,sorry but you should just forget me. So yeah. Hello to your classmates! (:

KC friends,thanks for everything. You guys were there to cheer me up when i wasn't over rinnie.

Asyiqin,its your life. I won't interfere anymore. Do what you want. I can't be bother. Sorry.

Friends come and go. So what's the point of having this quote 'Friends are Forever' ?

Wani,you're always my last minute date! haha! I miss you la swine! See ya tmr! (: Thanks for being the middle person. haha! I'm the nicest friend kan? haha! Stop being annoying okay? haha! A date on my Eighteen birthday! You know,i know! haha! (: I can't wait!

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-08-01T18:56:00.004+08:00

i'm a happy kid...

Prelims are ALMOST overrrr!
Art and comb science left.
What's there to be happy about sia?
N levels still haven't over!
What a swine! haha! (:
I should start doing my prelims art prep work!
Hard working okay! haha!
I've been staying back EVERYDAY to do my art.
And i went to school just now at nine and stayed till four to do my art!
See,I'm a good kid! (:
I'm prepared to fail ALL papers! YAY!
Especially comb humans!
I only did TWO pathetic qsns for BOTH papers!
Cool shit kan? :D
I can't wait for N level to end.
I got ALOT of plans on my mind!
BIG dreams BUT it will come trueeeeeeee.
I'm sure of it! (:
But for now,I'm just gonna concentrate on my studies! GYEAH!

I'm happier this way! (:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie... (:

2009-07-29T23:58:00.001+08:00

Cookie Jar... (:

[Travis:]
Hahaha You know what it is
Gym class heroes, the dream
It's hard to look innocent when I got cookie crumbs all over my face and shit

[Chorus:]
[The Dream:]
I like girls
They like me
They look so good
In they seven jeans
want you to be the one
And my only
I wanna be faithful
But I can't keep my hands out the cookie jar.
[Travis:]
My hands, my hands, my ha uh my hands
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands my hands out the cookie jar.

[Travis:]
You see I got this problem
I need help tryna solve it
Cause meeting after meeting and I'm still a cookie whore You can hide em, Imma find them, on the counter, in the closet
And I'll say I ain't do it with my face covered in chocolate
My girl be setting booby traps
To catch me eating Scooby snacks
I left crumbs in the bed once
But I told her I was through with that
She still don't be believing me
And I guess that I'm cool with that
But I got a sweet tooth, that'll never come loose
And the truth of the matter is.

[Chorus:]
[The Dream:]
I like girls,
They like me
They look so good
In they seven jeans
want you to be the one
And my only
I wanna be faithful
But I can't keep my hands out the cookie jar
[Travis:]
My hands, my hands, my ha uh my hands
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, muh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands my hands out the cookie jar.

[Travis:]
I got a thing for Milano, Biscotti Italianos
And I never turn down some Oreos if you got one
Butter Pecan Puerto Rican,
Or them Oatmeal Raisin Asians.
Hazelnut Brazilians,
Macadamia Caucasians,
Double stuffed or thin mint
It don't matter you getting it
Cause I got a sweet tooth that'll never come loose
And the fact of the matter is.

[Chorus:]
[The Dream:]
I like girls,
They like me
They look so good
In they seven jeans
want you to be the one
And my only
I wanna be faithful
But I can't keep my hands out the cookie jar
[Travis:]
My hands, my hands, my ha uh my hands
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my, uh, my
Can't keep my hands, my hands my hands out the cookie jar.

[Travis:]
I'm a monster for these cookies
I'm a beast for they treats
An animal for they crackers
Head to feet they so damn sweet
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my ha-uh my
Can't keep my hands, my hands, my hands out the cookie jar.

[Travis:]
And there you have it haha
I tried my best
I went to cookie anonymous
I guess I'm a failure
I can't seem to keep my damn hands out the cookie jar but,
It is what it is
Freak

2009-07-29T23:22:00.004+08:00

I've never felt so uncertain before.
I was always sure of what i wanted.
I was always making decision without turning back.
I've never regretted any of it.
But what's going on now?
Why am i getting so uncertain?
Why am i looking back?
Why am i eating my own words back?
Why am i regretting the decisions I've made?
Why am i getting more fickle minded?!
What the hell is wrong with me?!
Why did all of these have to come back at this point of time!
Well,who cares. I don't. (:

You had misunderstood me.
You kept asking the same thing and so keen on that I'm lying
So i don't see the point of telling the truth anymore.
I might as well just lie to make you feel satisfied.
Are you satisfied now?
Say what you want to say.
Think what you want to think.
Believe what you want to believe.

Nothing seems to bother me anymore.
I don't need anyone.
I'm a happy kid!
GYEAH! (:
I haven't revise for my maths paper 2 which is tmr.
And I've yet to complete my art!
What a drag!
Let's mug the whole night!

Okay GOlek!

Yours Sincerely;

ELFIE

2009-07-29T22:25:00.003+08:00

i love you...

in silence i teared.
in silence i kept my feelings.
in silence i cant forget you.
in silence i wore 'our' ring
in silence i want to be with you again.
in silence i dream about you
in silence i love you.
in silence i care for you.
in silence i miss you.
in silence i miss everything.
in silence i need you.
in silence i hold on to those memories.
in silence i think of you.
in silence i hold on to 'us'
in silence i can't let you go.
in silence i can't delete you from my life.
in silence i can't stop loving you.
in silence i prayed for your well being.
in silence i wish you're happy.
in silence you're still my hearts desire
in silence you left and never came back...
in silence i waited but you never came...

I'm still patiently waiting for your return.
You don't know how things are without you by my side.
I tried to be strong but i can't.
I miss you so damn badly.
You left me so many times and i kept waiting.
Please don't leave me anymore after next year july.
I need you,kakak!
Everything that we bought together.
Our ear rings. Our clothes. Everything.
I miss those fun i had with you.
I will always hold on to it to make me go through life.
I'm sorry for acting like i didn't give a fuck about you.
But i really do love you.
I'll wait for you.
So please don't leave me ever again...

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-28T22:25:00.002+08:00

Puspa...

Kau gadisku yang cantik
Coba lihat aku disini
Di sini ada aku yang cinta padamu

Kau gadisku yang manis
Coba lihat aku disini
Di sini ada aku yang sayang padamu

Walau ku tahu bahwa dirimu
Sudah ada yang punya
Namun aku tunggu sampai kau mau

Jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
Jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

Jangan jangan kau tak terima cintaku
Jangan jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
Putuskanlah saja pacarmu
Lalu bilang I LOVE U padaku

Walau ku tahu bahwa dirimu
Sudah ada yang punya
Namun aku tunggu sampai kau mau

Jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
Jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

Jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
Jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku
Ku kan selalu setia menunggu
Untuk jadi pacarmu

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-28T21:50:00.011+08:00

You're just so special...

Suzie,i know you realise it too.
Our friendship is becoming like [insert word] ..
Relationship always comes before friendship.
There's nothing i could/can do but to just keep hoping you're happy everyday.
But the thought of losing you is scaring me.
I really don't wanna lose you.
Do you know noone was able to pull me back up and make me study?
But you did it just like that.
You mean alot to me.
I really mean it.
I just can't bring myself disappoint you.
Cuz you're just so special to me and i wanted to make you feel happy.
It just feels different now.
But i guess its not up to me to decide.
Just do whatever will make you happy.
Please be happy everyday.
And I'm trying to ignore my feelings towards you.
But without knowing,I'm falling deeper everytime i tried to stop.
It seems like you're always the one I'll be thinking of.
I'm sorry but i just had to let you know.
If she's not satisfied with me,just give her my number.
I LOVE to make new friend. (:
I don't want you to fight with her and be sad.
I want you to be happy every single day.
I've already lost my bestfriends and now I'm losing you.
It hurts but as long as you're happy,it'll be okay.
Thanks for being my friend.

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-28T21:31:00.010+08:00

Let's fly kite...

Today i had my mother tongue paper!
I swear i don't know what i was doing sia!
It took me 15 minutes to finally get what suggestion was in malay!
And also cuz i was thinking of that someone.. (:
Did my art-went home-changed-slacked with hajjar,farhana and eunice-send eunice home and continued slacking with her.

Eunice,thanks for listening to all my crap.
It really feels good letting some of it out.
There's alot more that's left unsaid.
And thanks for cheering me up with your irritating dancing and taichi! haha!
I know i am dumb to the extend you wanted to slap me!
But i know you love me too much to even lay a finger on me! haha!
Thanks again love.
Pictures!!

And yes,i do love her.
Any problem with that??(:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-27T19:34:00.001+08:00

Wait for you...

[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, you're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just, just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it won't be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-27T19:01:00.004+08:00

Reminiscing...

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me!
Why in the world would i be thinking about you again?!
Why did you even come to my mind!
I actually daydream about our first date while doing my English Paper 1!
And i actually dream about our outing at ecp on our 2nd date,when i fell asleep after completing paper 2!
Oh,damn you fie!
I shouldn't be thinking about all these nonsense!
Since you're trying your best to forget me and treat me like a stranger,then i should too. (:
And I shall repeat for the last and final time that I'm NOT attach to anyone ever since we parted!
Stop assuming!
I'm not like you alright!
And i ain't a hypocrite!
But no matter how upset i am with you,it doesn't change the fact that i do miss your presence.
I miss the way you would comfort me when I'm down.
I miss hugging you and crying my hearts out.
I know it sounds gay but its just the fact.
I miss the way you scold,slap,punch,bit and PINCH me till there are bruises.
Now that you're no longer here, i just don't know who to turn to.
I've been keeping my feelings too long.
I seriously need a shoulder to cry on.
But i guess it'll take another sixteen years.

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-27T17:07:00.008+08:00

i miss you more than anyone else...

Everytime i see you in school,i wanted to say hello to you.
But i don't know why i just can't.
Maybe I'm too ashamed to face you after everything that had happened.
I miss talking to you. I really do.
Why can't we be as close as we once were?
Before you came back in to school,before i took my N seriously.
I miss those morning study session at macds.
I miss looking at girls with you when we're at macds.
Okay,most of the time its me. (:
I miss telling you everything that is happening in my life.
I miss going out to ecp just to talk and relax.
I miss the way you would try to guide me to the right path despite knowing how stubborn i am.
Cuz so far,you understand me the best.
Now we barely even talk.
We never even look at each other in the eyes.
Its like we're total strangers now.
Do you know it hurts not to be talking to you?
Do you know even when your right infront of me i still miss you alot?
Okay,this may sound gay but its the fact.

I miss the three of you alot.
Atleast i still talk to the two of them eventhough its rarely.
It's you that i just can't seem to talk too.
Maybe it's because I've disappoint you too many times.
I'm really sorry.
I really miss you,friend...

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

Well it's early in the morning
And my heart is feeling lonely
Just thinkin bout you baby
Got me twisted in the head
And I dont know how to take it
But it's driving me so crazy
I dont know if it's right
I'm tossin turning in my bed
It's 5 oclock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me weak...
I'm feeling hopeless in my home
I dont know what to do I think I'm in love
Baby...

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Now I know you're not my lady
But I'm just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do I'm going out of my mind
So baby if u let me
Kick it witchu well than maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite
Now I dont care if u got a man
Baby I wish you'd understand
Cuz I know he can't love u right, quite like I can
It's 5 oclock in the morning
And I still can't sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me weak...
I'm feeling hopeless at home
I dont kno what to do I think I'm in love
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
I love the way u freaky like that
It's an obsession

Hold up let me dream
Shorty got me feelin less surene
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent
Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, I love to spend it
And thats whats up and I dont care what people scream
You're my blessin when I'm stressin
My superfly beauty queen
I'm gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my ma know how I do
We go rendez-vous
Mi corazon belongs to you

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong) what am I do wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
What am I feeling? (what am I doing wrong?) what am I do so wrong? [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

Amor


The more i try to stop falling,the deeper i fall...
The more i try to forget,the more i'll think about it...

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie

2009-07-26T15:30:00.002+08:00

Don't blame me for being heartless.
That's what life is all about in the first place.
The more heartless you are,the better things are for you.
So yeah!
Have a happy life world!

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie

2009-07-22T20:45:00.009+08:00

I'll forget everything about this feeling...

I'm not ready to know anymore truths.
I don't wish to feel this way ever again.
I guess i finally got what i deserve for fooling around too much.
Starting from today,I won't fall for anyone ever again.
I guess this is life.

2009-07-21T16:42:00.005+08:00

ignorance is bliss...

Yesterday oral was fine i guess.
Just pass would be alright. (:

Maybe you think i've forgetten its your birthday today.
Maybe you think I'm being ego for not wishing you.
Maybe you think i don't wanna wish you cuz of what you did on my birthday.
Maybe you think i hate you for hurting me.
But all that is not true.
You should know me well enough by now.
I don't hold grudges.
So yeah.

Happy Birthday Rinnie Yuliani Binte Mhd Yani! (:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

i can wait forever...

You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
So I try to find the words that I could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away

And I can't lie every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face tonight
'Cause I just can't take it

[Chorus]
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won´t stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait forever

You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes, man I wish that I could stay

And I can't lie every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I want to come back home to see your face tonight
'Cause I just can't take it

[Chorus]
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won´t stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait, I can wait forever

I know it feels like "forever"
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
But when I come back home to feel your touch makes it better
Until that day there's nothing else that I can do
And I just can't take it
(I just can't take it)

[Chorus]
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait, I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won´t stop bleeding
But I can wait, I can wait, I can wait forever

I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever

2009-07-19T11:43:00.005+08:00

son of the gun...

Yesterday was awesome!
No doubt about that!

Yesterday texted Wani like 9 in the morning cuz i suddenly felt like watching the fireworks! haha!
And i asked her out of all people was cuz she's ALWAYS my last minute date.
Met her at around 7pm at cityhall.
It was suppose to be at 6.30pm but i was late. (:
It wasn't the fireworks that made it awesome,it was the company that i had with me!
Thanks Wani for yesterday! Thanks for bringing your bestfriends too!
They really crack me up! It's been a long time since i had a good laugh.
Reached home around 10.40pm.
Watched anime till 4am and slept at 5.30am.
I'm starting to get addicted to anime again! haha!

Amazingly today i woke up at 10am despite sleeping very late.
Will be meeting Wani later at 2pm at the airport to study.
I can't believe it that I'm actually studying.
Oh well,its for the best.
The more i think about tomorrows oral,the more nervous i get.
Walau! Can i just skip oral??!!
And my Malay oral is on 4th august!
With my suck-ish Malay,i don't even know if i can get a just passing mark!
Malay annoying laaaaaaa!!!
I'm going to get my haircut today. ):

Okay,I'm done complaining. (:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie

2009-07-17T18:43:00.007+08:00

handsome girls with pretty lies...

I skipped afternoon class yet again.
It's physics so i can't be bothered.
Reach home around one and i slept till five.
I'm glad that its Friday now.
Only Saturday to rest. ):
Sunday,out to study with hazwani! Finally i get to see her. (:
White hair are becoming more and more obvious now.
And i'm cutting my hair again.
I'm tired of getting into trouble cuz of it.
So,bye super duper long tail!
Somehow that caption on top[handsome girls with pretty lies] sounds nice. haha.
Okay,no link.

The more i think about it,the angrier i get!
So why bother even thinking about it!
Its been a fucking long time since i felt this way.
Thank you so much for making my temper come back!
Everything that happened today will be in the private blog.
Cuz i don't wish to elaborate it and make myself all vulgar here.
So GYEAH!

21st July is coming and it's your birthday.
That's how the number 12 came about.
Your favourite number is 21 so by turning it over,it become 12! (:
12o6o8.
21st July 2oo8 was the first time i actually celebrated any one's birthday.
It wasn't much but i hope you like what i did last year.
I was hoping it'll be the same every year but things aren't the same anymore.
And you gave me the most WONDERFUL present i could have ever asked for on my 17th birthday.
I will remember it for life.
You're the sweetest thing that had ever happen to me.
And i mean it. No sarcasm or anything.
Like I've said,all good things come to an end.
Nothing last forever. (:

Your sweet sixteen was my bitter seventeen. haha!
Kan kawan? (:
I wish you all the best in life and last long with whoever you're with.
Be happy alright papan. (;
Anything text me,still using the old number. So yeah.
And i admit,i do miss you. (:
See,I'm not as ego as you okay! haha!
I actually thought the spelling of April in malay was apel!
When the actual fact is its stays the same! haha
And thank you for teaching me this Malay word...
dua-belas jun dua ribu lapan. (:

Khairunn,i have nothing to blog about you la.
Walau. haha!
I can only say that i still keep that annoying gay picture of mine that was taken at ECP!(:
And i ain't emo! It's just a post kan!
Dala,next time i post EVERYTHING at my private blog ah!
So you cannot read anything! haha!
Okay,da. Satisfied now that i blog about you? haha.

N level English oral this coming Monday! Bullcrap!

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-16T15:22:00.007+08:00

Pretty boys...

I'm fucking exhausted from everything.
Finally today I'm home early!
Reason being,the teacher was absent. (:
So i skipped afternoon class.
I've been reaching home late almost everyday.
Can die ah.
And I've made up my mind,starting from next week I'm going for night study!
Can i just kill myself for making this decision?!
I don't have much of a choice.
Prelims coming and right after it,four more weeks it'll be N already.
I should just get hit by a lorry balak and die!
And oh,they should CHANGE the freaking timetable!
I don't mind two hours of other lessons but NOT malay!
My brains are literally dying from it! Stupid subject!
And can anyone please tell me how to spell January all the way to December in MALAY??
That's how fucked up my malay is!
It was so damn embarrassing when the teacher point out my mistake in the letter writting!
I can't even spell July in malay! Stupid or what! Grr!
Let's be prepare to do so-so for malay. (:
As for the principle,a reminder our school is NOT an all girls school like your ex school which happens to be KC!
So STOP treating that school like an all girls school!
Firstly,we're MIXED school!
Secondly,you should just buzz off!
Thirdly,we were happy with our old principle!
Thank you!
Actually all this is not important.
I'm blogging cuz that's the only way i can get through to a friend.
So yeah.

For a friend;

I don't know what's going on.
I really don't.
If i did something wrong then I'm sorry.
It was you who made me get back up and start to go to school.
I even when for afternoon classes.
But why suddenly things change?
Your friendship is something that i don't wish to lose.
Even though i just know you for let say two months,it was you who always make me laugh every single day without fail.
Even when you're crying ,you still didn't fail to make me laugh with all your vulgarities.
I don't want things to be this way.
But if you think its better for you this way,then i will stay as far away from you as possible.
I won't contact you anymore,if that will make you happy.
And I'm not that unreasonable.
I do know my limits. So yeah.
Friends is what we'll always be.
I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for making you angry.
I'm sorry if i wasn't a nice friend. I'm sorry if i kept saying things to upset you.
I'm sorry,suzie.
If ever you need someone to talk to or anything,i will still be here for you.
I used to think it was nice to get a scolding from you but just now when you scolded me,it left me speechless.
I felt like i wasn't a good friend. So once again,I'm sorry.
I hope you would forgive me.
Take care.
I'm just a text away if you need me.
You are still the nicest friend despite everything.
Thank you for everything.
I'm sorry.
Goodbye..

For you know who you are...

I'm sorry but you will find it out sooner or later.
So i rather i tell you then you finding it out yourself.
Sorry for the damaged I've caused.
Since you're trying to forget me,you should just carry on with it.
I'm sorry but that's just the way things are now.
I already got what i deserve. So yeah.
Thanks for cursing me btw. (:
Oh and i know all your friends will be reading my blog too cuz you'll be using the teachers' comp.
So hello to them! (:

Am i so predictable?
Nah,I'm not.
It's just the changes in me is so obvious in the eyes of friends that know me since like...
Forever? I miss you guys but I'm not worth to be your friend.
I did so many wrongs.
I've even hurt my own bestfriend with my fucking harsh words.
And i know in the past i changed from bad to fucking worse till i can't even recognize myself.
Every time i looked in the mirror,i see a fucking egoistic bitch who abandon her bestfriends for a girl.
It was a decision i regret till today.
Oh well,what's done can't be undone.

Qamarul Afiyan,
thank you for everything.
I'm sorry for the harsh words I've said to you when i was with Rinnie.
I still remember that time i called you up 3am in the morning when i found out she played behind my back.
It was raining heavily and i was at east coast park.
You actually paid for my cab fare and sat at the void deck with me till 5am in the morning.
You made me smile and laugh when i was crying like as if someone died!
You gave me the advice i needed. You were my pillar of strength.
You taught me to be someone yang ade cara.
You taught me that friends means the world.
I will never forget all this.
And i love you like my own brother. I feel secure every time when i was with you.
Cuz i know you will never let anyone hurt me.
And i could tell you everything cuz you didn't mind.
You encourages me when I'm feeling like a loser.
You told me that you're proud of me cuz i was willing to take the risk.
Do you know that those words are the one that made me strong?
Do you know how much you mean to me?
But all this doesn't matter anymore cuz of one stupid mistake.
I truly regret it.
When I'm blogging about you,i couldn't control my tears.
Cuz all those wonderful memories came back to me.
And i still kept the songs we made together at the void deck.
Fathullah,
who was always there to stop my arguments with yan.
You were always the one who'll be cool about everything and ALWAYS be the LAST to arrive when it comes to going out.
I have nothing else to say about you cuz you're always okay about everything.
And now,you're hot! So yeah.
Ryan,
you were there when i was down.
When i fought with Rinnie it was you who help me talk to her and made things better.
You even helped me with ways to win her back.
You kept giving me advice after i broke up with her.
You believe in me. And I'm sorry if I've ever hurt you.

I still remember all the outings we had together.
Even going to gym.
It's something i will never forget.

I'm sorry to the three of you.
You guys were such a wonderful friends.
It's me who didn't cherish you guys.
I'm sorry if I've cause any hurt to you.
We were once close friends but i guess all good things comes to an end.

Yours Sincerely

Elfie...

2009-07-11T17:37:00.046+08:00

It's the end of the chapter...

Let it stay as the past...
I'm over it.

Five years of friendship and i miss each and every single one of them...

Those outside friends that stood by me...
[i dont have some.you should know who you are la.]

Part-time lovers.. (:

That special someone.
I would give you the world if i could.
You deserve all of the happiness in whole wide world. (:
Even if i can't be with you, i would stick by you as a friend.
No matter what happen,i will always be there when you need me.
And you're million times better than her in every way. (:
I'm assuming you've read my blog cuz i saw the last picture in your blog.
Oh well,honesty is the best policy.
This is the last time I'm gonna be honest. (:
These pictures were taken by my phone...
Sorry for the last picture. haha. (:
It's my good fortune to have got to know you,kodok. so yeah.
How can you ever hurt me when i enjoyed every second i spent time or talk on the phone with you.
And sorry for being naggy at times,it's cuz i care for you. (:
Like i told you,it's becoming a habit.
And entertaining you is fun,with all those reactions. haha.
It just feels different if i never text or call you for one day.
Doesn't that sounds familiar. haha.
so yeah.
Your present will get dusty if you don't take it soon. haha.
Kodok,i will always be there for you when you need someone.
I'm just a call or a text away. (:
And I'm sorry if my prepaid is always low.
I'm a busy man. haha!
I hope you get well soon.
You're always craving for something,so please start craving again.
And start eating again.
I'm getting worried for you when you told me that you literally look like a skeleton.
So please get well soon.
It seems like i have alot to say when it comes to you. (:
You'll always be that special someone even though it's sealed for good. (:

Yours Sincerely

Elfie...

2009-07-10T21:36:00.003+08:00

Promises are meant to be broken...

Everything has ended.
My hopes are gone.
Chapter closed.
I was the first to say hello.
I will also be the first to say goodbye.
I don't know why I'm feeling this way.
Thank you for everything.
I miss you...

I don't feel like blogging anymore.
So this shall be my last.

I went to school today.
Waited for aisha.
Last minute i decided not to go for afternoon class.
So I'm prepared to get fuck by the teachers on monday.
And i left without knowing aisha wanted to go home with me.
Sorry.
But i did make it up to you by sending you to sembawang.
Met her at around 5.40pm.
Took the train to sembawang just to send her and then back to bedok.
I had fun in the train. You know,i know,public also know. haha.
I will always care and love you. (:
You're always my part-time lover. (:
So,i do love you. haha
I will upload pictures on my next post for memories.
After that,chapter close.
So will my life.

I'm not ready for prelims.
I'm not ready for N.
I'm not ready to know anymore truths.
I'm not ready to face up to reality again.
I'm not ready to bravely face all the challenges again.
I'm not ready to be honest ever again.
I'm not ready for anything.

But one thing is for sure..
I'm ready to run away from EVERYTHING and EVERYONE.

I'm sorry...

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie...

2009-07-09T20:36:00.008+08:00

Let's blog! (:

School's a BITCH la! I swear!
I have to cut away my tail! CBCBCB!
I WONT CUT IT AWAY!!
I should just clip it up but it'll be weird!
Argg! Stupid school! Its MINE hair! NOT YOURS!
DAMN YOU! GO DIE LA!

Why can't all those conflicts stop.
Just one week of absence and a lot had happened!
I really mean A LOT!
Its giving me the headaches!
Why can't we just carry on like it was till we end our N levels!
Maybe i'm used to being alone that i didnt realize that a lot had change.
I hate being nice. I hate being the one understanding both parties!
I hate being stuck in the middle!
Why cant we just be friends like we used to.
Why the sudden change?
I'm not used to this cold war!
Boyf/Girlf/Friends are equally important.
Its up to each individual to choose their own life.
Ah fuck la! I should stop caring about all this and carry on being alone and act like i know NOTHING!
I should just stay at home and failed my N level!
That will be a GREAT choice! CB!
My prelims are coming in two weeks time!
YAY!
I'm NOT ready for it!
27july please don't come!
I don't wanna fail even though its just prelims!
CB laaaaaaa!
I haven't even start revising a thing!
Let's get prepared to failed badly and act like as if i've repent after i got my result!
CB!

Being absent for so long i realise how much i miss my friends.
I actually told them i miss them! How gaaaaaay! haha!
Oh well,i just had to tell them i miss them. I still feel gay till now! haha
But still i cant wait to leave school!
I've decided what course to take! GYEAH!
I miss siti aisha! Should talk to her tmr!
But i lazyyyyyyy wanna go school!
I had a nice chat with eunice! (:
Its been ages! haha!
Thanks to me for being an ass.
Atleast i admit. haha.

Today is kodok's birthday and i've yet to officially wish her. I have my reasons.
By the time you read this you'll know the reason already.
(:
Anw happy birthday NORSUZILAH!

Hope whatever you wish for came true.
Have a happy life kodok!

The changes in me are scaring me.
Why can't i be the old me?
Why can't i just start scolding vulgarities at those who made me angry like i used to?
Why am i so use to being independent?
Issit a good thing or a bad thing?
I just wanna be a kid again.
So i won't have to keep all my feelings.
So i can scold at anyone without saying sorry and just walk away.
What the hell is happening to me?
When the hell did i learn to control my tempers?
Why did all this happen?
I'm sick and tired of keeping my feelings.
I guess people change as they grow.
I'm just tired of everything.
When will all those drama ends?
I really really am tired.
I need a break from everything..

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeee

2009-07-08T20:26:00.003+08:00

Its been ages since i last updated..
Been sick for the whole week.
Haven't been to school since school reopens..
I've miss alot of lessons.
Suddenly i feel like i'm not ready to take my N.
Its just too fast. I'm not ready!
What an ass i can be!
Aku MALAS nk gi sekolah! CBCBCBCB!
Well,i have to pass no matter what or else that someone wont talk to me.
Grr!

Kodok,no matter what happen i will always be by your side when you need me. I promise you alright. (: Don't be sad anymore okay. Have a wonderful birthday tmr. I will give you your present when we meet up. Have a happy life,suzieeeeeee! (:

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeeee

2009-06-23T00:00:00.002+08:00

Let's get fucked up and die..

Does karma really exist?
If so,why can't people stop hurting their love ones like as if it's a game.
Well,its NOT fun getting hurt or being hurt.
And what's so fun about having ALOT of ex if you're just toying with them?
What's so fun about playing timer?
Issit because it shows that you can get anyone you want?
Or issit because your love one didn't give you the attention and love you need?
Or issit because you don't know what love is?
Or issit because you're PROUD to tell people you got 40++ ex?
So what issit?

This is just a random post. I'm not hitting on anyone or anything.
It's just my opinion. Life is really a big unknown.
Why on earth would people go around hurting their love one?
I really don't get it. Is this all part of a game?
If so,when will it end?
Why love someone when what they love is not you but hurting you.
Why be faithful when they keep cheating on you?
Why bother to fall in love in the first place if all this is gonna happen?

'Someone who deserve your tears wont make you cry.'
I kept saying this but i didn't get what it mean till today then i realise..
I should have left the first time you made me cry over you.
I guess i was blinded by your love. Not anymore.
I don't even know why I'm blogging about 'us' again.
Maybe it's because i realise how stupid i was.
I left my best friends for you.
Do you know how much i miss being with them?!
They were my world! And i was too blinded by love that i left them.
Maybe it was because i had never fall in love before i met you.
I realise my mistakes and i don't wanna do it ever again.
But its too late,they wont take me back.
I fought with someone i don't even know over you.
And i realise its not even worth it to fight for you.
And because of that i got an enemy without knowing.
How could i ever be so stupid!
Its all in the past. I will never be that stupid ever again.
Just to let you know..
Those feelings WERE true..
Those words WERE sincere..
And everything i did for you WAS to make you happy.
See the PAST tense? (:
I didn't believe in karma till you told me that what i said was true.
You should know what I'm taking about. (:

It takes time,but slowly I'm getting better. (:

Yours Sincerely;

Elfie..

2009-06-21T05:00:00.001+08:00

I've been living in denial every single day...
Nothing's alright..
Everything's fucked up..
People come and go..
From strangers to friends to strangers again..
All good things comes to an end..
Nothing last forever especially love..
Lastly,life's forever a bitch.. (:

and i cant sleep..
and maybe i should just change back and lead a life that i've lead for 16 years before knowing her..

Yours Sincerely;

[just a random video. cuz its five o'clock in the morning and i still cant sleep,its in the lyrics. haha! Other than that there's NO special meanings behind the song. (: ]

Fieeeeeeee

2009-06-20T23:32:00.012+08:00

let's make a little magic in the moonlight..

Yesterday sleepover at winwin's house was awesome! haha! Took gay pictures with him after that he went out and left me with his siblings. What an ass he can be but i still love this brother of mine though! haha

Sometimes things happen for a reason...

Here are the pictures...

[smile for the camera or he'll BITE you! haha]

[i was forced to act fierce! haha!]

[i wanna kiss a girl! haha! we're learning how to pout lips! (: ]

[i'm NOT gay! Eventhough he is! haha!]

[passport picture pleaseeeeee..]

okay i'm done. i wanna fly kite! i'm feeling very restless now..

Your's Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeeee

2009-06-18T15:23:00.004+08:00

tongue tied...

Been out like everyday. Well,holidays are no longer fun i guess.

Yesterday met dira at 3 supposedly atJoo Chiat but i got lost! haha!
I'm not melayu asli so cant blame me kan! Joo Chiat pun tk tau kat maner! haha!
Blablabla...at night went out again for dont know what purpose.
Woodland,East Coast Park,Home,Void Deck,Drunk,Home again!
Today i'm staying in and be a good kid!
Nah,its cuz i'm having a major headaches! haha!

Tmr having an outing with the SIRs again. Gyeah.
And i forgot about Wani's birthday! OMG! What a bitch you are fiee!
I'm so so sorry wani! Happy belated birthday ! (:

I have nothing to blog about actually. I have nothing to blog about anymore. I have nothing interesting going on anymore.

Life's A Bitch. (:
You'll never get what you want if you keep mum about it...

Your's Sincerely;

[Bunga bukan sekumtum..]

Fieeeeeeeee

2009-06-12T21:42:00.012+08:00

supposedly ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY....

Please stop the hurt will you?
Please give me back my happiness will you?
Please know you're hurting me till now.
Please know there's NOTHING to be happy about you being attach..
Please know i was never perfect for you that's why you left.....

Just now met Dira at Eunos and proceeded to Marsiling. She pierce her tongue. I swear i was feeling the pain for her! CB man! The blood is DISGUSTING! Maybe next time then i pierce. haha.

On wednesday met up with Suzie at commonwealth[sp?].Then we proceeded to henderson wave. Like WOW! My first time to explore west area! haha. We had to climb a four/five storey high stairs. Studied,talk,took pictures,homeeeee. And oh,suzie kept tripping over everything! haha!

Here are the pictures. All of it are hers! Haha! Well,my handphone camera got flash and she wanted to take pictures..

[Photograph by;Elfieeeee]

[Photograph by;Suzieeee]

[look at the mess SHE made!haha! Suzie's home-made WEST side goreng pisang and my EAST side coke is in there too ! haha!][

Okay i'm done..

Your's Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeeeeee

2009-06-07T19:41:00.000+08:00

the hurt came back! FUCK!
IT WAS A MISTAKE!

2009-06-05T14:55:00.001+08:00

i'm very disappointed.
it DOESNT pay to be nice.
when everything start to go wrong I will be the one to blame.
GREAT!

2009-06-05T00:05:00.012+08:00

moment of truth...

Yesterday,i was officially three month single without you.
And today marks the day we first got to know each other. Its been one year,Rinnie. (:
I was doing my three page essay when i received a text from you.[i replied you thru my blog. Prepaid low and i know you would read it.]
I just couldn't control my tears after reading it.
Never for once i blamed you for all these hurt that i'm feeling till today.
Yes,it hurts but if you're happy,i wont mind.
Its been one whole year i've known you.
I've seen you through everything and you used to be there for me.
But i guess i'm back to where it started,being single and all i care about is myself.
No,its different now. I am single but you left a big scar on my heart.
I'm healing i guess. Slowly,i'm starting to accept the fact that we're just friends.
And as your girlf,its only right that i showered you with my love and gave you everything. So there's a no need for you to say that i showered you with love and gave you everything, i did what i did cuz i was your girlf afterall.
You said i showed you what true and sincere love was so you should know how to love now.
I hope you won't hurt anyone anymore.
Please be someone of high standard and treasure your love one.
Not be a bitch and hurt them the way you hurt me. (:
I am glad that i had you in my life too and, i'm also glad that its you who left me so i don't have to feel bad and i know it wasn't me that hurt you. I never did hurt you in the first place. (:
I will find someone better than you,you don't have to tell me that. (:
And if i ever find that person,i know that person will be a million times better than you.((:
After that relationship end,everything change so did i.
I'm no longer that naive,i know what's right and wrong.
I won't fall for anyone the way i did fall for you [you know,i know] (:
You have a happy life too aites. Friends we shall be.
See,i'm a positive thinker now! haha!
As if! But whatever it is i'll always be here or there for you when you need me,friend.
I do miss you but thats all... (:

I'll update about the picnik and everything another day. I'm still not done with my essay laaaaa! walauuuuuuuu!Sorry khairunn. I'll post it soon okay. (:

Yours Sincerely;

[this is for you,friend. rinnielfie;12o6o8-o4o3o9. But our friendship will never stop aite. (: ]

Elfie

2009-06-01T20:41:00.004+08:00

so here i am still holding on...

Seeing you just now really breaks my heart.You don't know how long I've been waiting for you. Since i was 15 god damnit! Why can't you change? Why must you make me suffer? Why can't you be there for me? I was happy went you came out. You make me feel like I'm young again,without shouldering your responsibilities.You were the first i told about my first girlfriend,you didn't mind. But now,I'm back to where it started! Being the adult,taking care of the younger ones. It should be you taking care of me! I'm NOT the first child! Mum and dad keep treating like everything was my fault! Every single thing! I'm tired of shouting at them,I'm tired. Please come back and defend me. I'm not that strong to go through everything myself. My girlfriend left me and i need you. I need you so badly! I need someone to listen to my problems. Give me advice. I'm still a kid no matter what. I don't wanna be the adult anymore! I'm just 17 damnit! I wanna enjoy life! Not sit at home like i owe them a living! Please no more nonsense from you after next year June. I have no more strength to go through it again. I've been running away from visiting you cuz i know my heart will hurts to see that you're not on the same side as me. I wanna hug you the way when you came out the other time. I wanna have late night smoking session with you inside the room. You know I'm not the type who'll say 'iloveyou' to people. Its been years since i last said it to you. Even when you said that to me,I'll just say 'ah'. Doesn't mean i said nothing i don't feel anything. You're my pillar of strength . Please no more..
I miss you,kakak..

Okay,just typing down what I'm feeling to make myself feel gooooooood.
I'm just gonna rot at home the WHOLE of June holidays.
I'm still thinking whether i wanna go June lessons or not.
I prefer to study at home.I don't even open my books so what crap!
I'm done i guess.

Friend,get well soon.

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-05-30T23:32:00.020+08:00

i wanna kiss a girl...

Oh hair please grow FAST!I need my side hair! I miss it like fucking alot!CB laaaaaaa!!!! Hair,i miss you!I do miss my long hair..I promise i wont cut you away if you grow now! I'm NOT gonna cut my hair ever again!Enough of TRYING out new hairstyles! CB!
It like I'm having a MOHWAWK.Wait,it is MOHAWK! CB CB CB!! I find it fucking irritating and my wonderful friends said its nice! walauuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!
Okay,enough about hair..

Today,went to KC Family Day as NOT plan.
And oh,please stop making stories about me! Go fly kite far far okay?
Iqah was the FIRST person to GREET me! haha!
Iqin joined soon after. Thanks eh iqin for saying I'm second ........ butch[you know,i know].haha! Met both of their parents for don't know what reason. I just had to be the one they go out with all the time. haha! I was trying so hard to cover up my piercings but i don't think i managed to do it cuz my studs are soooooooooo obvious! Dumb ass! (:
After that IMMEDIATELY i went to walk to THAT particular stall. hehe..
Walk around the school and that's about it. It's BORING.We kept going out to 'kill mosquito'. (:
Saw khairunn and i said HI! haha! I'm friendly! hahaha!
After it ended,went to PP to eaaaaat! I was sucha bitch la at there!
I didn't even know why. Suke eh kiter acting! haha! Mintak maaf kerana membuat pakai awak ye kawan. My malay sucks laaaaaa! walau! The BEST part was i lost ALL of my studs! (&^@*#&$(*^#@$)(@#&*!@^!!!

It's been almost three months and I'm still the same.
Why can't i get over you?
Why I'm sucha fool?
Why I'm wasting my life away because of you?
Your happiness is the most important to me.
But when you told me you were happy with her just now,my heart aches.
It really does,i even cried inside the bus while telling iqah about it.
Why do you make me so weak?
I was never this way till you came into my life.
Do you know you made a big impact on my life?
Never in my life have i ever felt this lonely.
I was so independent that i need no one but myself.
But now,i need you. I don't like this feeling.
Please make it go away. I hate being lonely.
Even when I'm with my friends,i still feel lonely.
Cuz its not the same feeling being with you.
Even after so many wrong doing you've done to me,the only thing i could remember was the good times.
Just what the hell is wrong with me! Someone who deserve your tears won't make you cry BUT i kept crying over you and i can't stop. Its like my tears are only meant for you. Oh god,help me. Please make me strong again. I can't take it anymore.I don't wanna be weak anymore!
The only positive thing that you did for me was you showed me how to love,to care and never repeat my mistakes.
Now,i know how to control my anger after that particular incident.
I've promised myself i won't do it ever again.
I'm sorry for what i did,it was the biggest mistake.
Till today,I'm still regretting it.
And because of that,I've change...

I miss you,i miss what we did together,i miss everything that we used to have,i miss being attached to you,i miss arguing with you over small matter,i miss you pinching me till i cried,i miss the way we'll always make up after every fights,i miss knowing that you'll never wanna let me go,i miss you holding on to me,i miss seeing you smile,i miss seeing the way you laugh,i miss seeing your face so lighten up when you get your strawberry ice blend,i miss waiting two hours outside your school just to send you home,i miss waking up at four-thirty in the morning just to send you to school,i miss holding your hand,i miss hugging you,i miss the way you kiss me when we said goodbye,i miss seeing you cry after every meeting cuz you don't wanna it to end,i miss waking up by your side and seeing you sleeping like a baby,i miss disturbing you while you're next to me sleeping,i miss those late night calls,i miss those 'i love you', i miss going to Starbucks to buy caramel frap,i miss getting all worked up every time just to meet your parents,i miss eating with you at your house,i miss the ways you tried to control me and change me to a better person,i miss calling you over and over again after you hang up on me,i miss those anniversaries text,i miss chasing after you went i made you angry and you just ran,i miss the way when we actually cried while talking and telling how much we meant to each other,i miss going to your house just to send medicine cuz you're sick,i miss getting paranoid over nothing,i miss finding out the truth every time you lied to me,i miss the way you slap me real hard to make me realise that you care for me,i miss buying chocolates for you after every arguments just to make you cool down,i miss doing everything that i did just to make you happy....

Oh FUCK,everything had ended..
Basically i just miss you.

Yours Sincerely;

Life is nothing but a movie with a director;The director is you while the movie is your life. So direct it well,my friend..

Fieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-05-29T12:03:00.006+08:00

i'm losing my mind...

Sometimes i wish everything would be the way i want it to be.
Oh well,i'm not god...
Sometimes i wish you never leave me.
Oh well,i wasn't a good girlf i guess...
Sometimes i wish things would still be the same so i won't change for the worst.
Oh well,i am who i am...
Sometimes i wish i could turn back time.
Oh well,i'm just a normal human being...
Sometimes i wish i wouldn't turn back after making a decision.
oh well,i am fickle minded sometime...
Sometime i wish things won't change.
Oh well,you'll never know how much i miss being with you...
Sometime i wish i can let go.
Oh well,it takes time...
Sometimes i wish i can accept someone new.
Oh well,i'm just not ready.
Sometime i wish you knew how much i want you to know the real me.
Oh well,its your choice...
MOST of the time i wish all these wishes would come true.
Oh well,NONE did!

Okay,i'm just talking CRAP! Maybe this is what i've always wanted.
I don't know. I hate being this way.
Being so useless when everything don't go as plan.
I am useless,i guess.
Life's a bitch!

Your's Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeee

2009-05-27T12:16:00.017+08:00

baby let's just knock it off...

Okay,i want to thank HAZWANI for blogging TEN things why i'm sucha ASS!
Sweet eh! haha! I won't get offended la. I know you'll always adore me! haha!
Great minds think alike! GYEAH!

Let me reply to your TEN things about me!

1) I will do it sooooon! haha!
2) Ofcuz. But only your mind! haha! I wish i could read.....mind. you know,i know. (:
3) Well,you were willing. haha! But still we had lots of fun despite the last minute thing.
4) I am who i am. haha!
5) hahaha! no comment about that. I can only say i find it cute though..
6) Seeing my friends smile makes me even happier.haha! so laugh more!
7) I can even be gay-er if you want me too! hahahaha!
8) Honesty is always the best policy. It does scare me too but I have nothing to lie about. Everything is the truth. Liars are pain in the ass! So yeah!
9) Drink more milk and you'll grow. Wait,you're 18 so you can't grow anymore! hahaha!
10) I didn't make you change it,it was your choice. I'm honoured that i'm the only one.haha!

Okay i've replied all of your TEN things about me. I realise people just loveeee to blog bad stuff about me. hahaha! *kening up up! And wani i know you're jealous of my eyebrown piercing! haha!

Now,the moment of truth! A PICTURE TELLS A THOUSAND WORDS,wani! haha!

[we just cant decide how to smile! haha!]

[YOUR goofie-ness!]

[Friends is the ONLY word that can describe us. GYEAH! ]

[study hard aites! good luck for your A levels!]

Wani,i'm not that mean to post all those UN-glam pict of yours. See,i am nice. haha!
I took them just for my own laughter! No sharing with the world. haha!
After all those reasons why i'm sucha ass,i'm still being nice k. (:

Okay done!

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeeeee

2009-05-24T20:50:00.003+08:00

and we're just gon' be enemies...

Today met NADIRA! Its been YEARS babe!
ex PRIMARY school bestfriend! haha!
You're still shorter than me! It will NEVER change! haha
Seven years i've fuckingly know you! WOW! haha!
You've seen me in my worst and everything! haha!
And how faaaaaaaat i was! Now,da muscular and TALL oii! haha!
I can't believe how fat i was in primary school!
Let's build up the body baybeh! GYEAH!

Meeting you just now really bring back old memories.
That tomboy ways and 'don't mess with us' kinda attitude!
All those bitchy stuff and gossiping! haha!
We've grown! I can't believe it. Its been FOUR long years!
You went to girls school and you brought out your famine side!
Which ofcuz amaze me like *^@#(*&%#%^(#*@!
I went to mixed school and brought out MORE of my 'manly' side? haha!
We should switch school? haha!
It was comfortable being around you cuz you're from a school of my type.
It's just amazing how people change.
I used to disturb you about GGR, now i'm a butch and you're still straight!. haha!
Mcm sial kan pragai! haha!
Thanks for those compliments eh? I can fly already! haha.
So much to talk about so little time!
Lets hang out again TMR! GYEAH! haha!

Okay done!

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeee

2009-05-23T21:38:00.006+08:00

i did somethings but that's the old me....

I'm home the WHOLE day today.
I'm sucha GOOD kid! haha!
Actually i woke up at three or four plus,so yeah!
Yesterday,iqah paitao!
I end up going to simei all alone just to buy my stud!
Fun perrrrr! haha!

I'm hoping that everything will go as plan.
I really am...................

Khairunn,i'm sucha dick eh? THANKS! You're the sweetest! haha! Well,i have my reasons kan. Its reasonable enough! A promise made,remember? (:

People always say love at first sight but what about crush at first sight?
Is there such thing?
I wonder.... ((:

Okay GOlek!

Yours Sincerely;

[gambar tk perlu! haha!]

Fieeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-05-22T17:01:00.003+08:00

you're just gonna keep hating me...

I realise something.
Ohh,crap!

I'm gonna change EVERYTHING soon!

One whole week i've been staying at home doing nothing!
Oh,i'm so good at wasting my life away!
And i didn't even bother to open up my books.
How to pass N levels like this?
Ohh,CRAP!
Should i just start my june holiday now?
I'm soooooo lazy to go to school! (:

Let's get fucked up and die!
Okay GOlek!

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeeee

2009-05-21T15:33:00.006+08:00

when i finally ironed out all of my priorities...

I realise that i actually update everyday!
Well,not schooling perrr. haha!
Okay,i woke up at SIX today eventhough i'm not schooling!
I was half dead,i slept at three so what do you expect? haha!
I kept falling asleep and my phone kept vibrating! haha!
I'm a happy kid. (:

I took out all of my studs and look at the mirror..
I miss my face without any holes on it! okay,random!
Well,pain is pleasure? GYEAH!
And i'm not closing it. ((:
I miss friends! They're schooling! WALAUUUUUUUUU!

I was watching televeision then it shows about the movie 'night at the museum 2'.
It reminded me of a fucking stupid conversation i had with iqah inside the bus..

Two gays boarded the bus and Iqah was trying real hard not to laugh at the gays,
So i turned to her and asked her..

Fiee: kau da tgk night at the museum?
Iqah: [laugh] no
Fiee: that movie funny tau.
Both: [laugh]
Iqah: so kau da tgk ah?
Fiee: no [buat muke slumber]
Both: [ LAUGH]!

I asked her that 'cuz i saw the poster 'night at the museum 2' at the busstop. Random perrr!
I swear that conversation was so stupid la! Well,i had to do something before the gays found out she's laughing at them. Not nice right. I'm gay myself so i should know. haha!

What am i getting myself into?
I really dont know.
What's going on?
I need answers.
Ohh well, sometimes its better off without any direct answers.
I love searching for my own answers 'cuz the outcome will not be what you expect it to be! haha!

I'm glad that i made tagged? haha!
Okay merepek!
I'm boreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed!

Okay,done!

Yours Sincerely;

[now,i am!]

Fieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-05-20T16:01:00.010+08:00

the coldest story ever told...

My voice is coming back! YAY!
But still mcm &^@#($*&(*#^&!
So gaaaaaaaaaaaaay! haha!

Been at home for like THREE days straight!
Cool or what? haha!
Sleep late,wake up late! GYEAH!

At around 11 i received a text from a friend
I'm sorry for being a jerk and acted like i didn't care
I just cant. I'm sorry.
I don't wish to give you false hope.
I don't wish to give you empty promises.
Yes,i've choose to move on but i'm just not ready.
I'm sorry. I hope everything wil be fine.

I'm bored?
Ohh kawan,bile nk jumper?
Ohh juliet,besok kahwen k?
Ohh random much! haha!

Please don't like me.I'm not worth your time.Forgive me.

I'm gonna have a haircut soooooooooon!

This will be it! I've make up my mind! So GYEAH!

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-05-19T17:52:00.009+08:00

you'll never find nobody better than me...

I've officially LOST my voice! GYEAH!
*&#^$(&@*#^*&^%#($*!)@&#$#$%^!!!!!
All i can do now is either nod or shake my head!
Totally NO VOICE!
How to talk on the phone?
How to disturb people?
WALAUUUUUU!
haha!
All thanks to my stubborn-ess!
I actually smoke ALOT yesterday when i know i'm losing my voice!
Like WOW!
^%$#*@# stupid kan?
I know! Well,what to do? haha!

This whole week i'm not schooling!GYEAH!
Ohh,its MY own holiday! haha!
I'm just lazy to go since MYE has ended.
So next week can start studying again! haha!
or maybe i should just start June Holiday like from TODAY? haha!

Actually i have absolutely NOTHING to blog about! haha!
I'm just trying my best to waste my life away.GYEAH!
Due to lost of voice i CANT smoke!
&^@#(*#(*$^&(@*&#)!$0-!

Okay done!

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeeee

2009-05-19T00:14:00.012+08:00

i mean after all the things we've been through...

Today,i woke up at EIGHT eventhough i'm NOT schooling!
Thanks to IQAH for forgetting to give my keys on friday!
I actually went all the way to KC to take my keys! haha!

I saw you walking out of the school but i just didn't have enough courage to say hi to you.
Seeing your back view reminds me of how you walked out from me on fourth march.
I hate to see you happy with someone else but i hate it even more when you're unhappy being with me.
So i hope you're happy with whoever you're with now.
i miss you though.

okay,dont kill me for saying that eh kawan-kawan! ((:

After that went to LAVENDER to meet DEAREST MR LATE aka FARHAT! haha!
BLABLABLA! and i waited TWO HOURS for SOMEONE[you should know who you are] to reply my text!
And and she said its MINE fault! Baek ah! haha!
Met iqah and farhat at bedok after that someone replied.
Continued slacking.
Made iqah ^$%*&^* mad! haha! sorry eh kawan. (;
Me and my mischiveous plans! haha! *kening up up*
Reach home around 11.20PM
And then I'm online now! haha!

To whoever you are;

I'm sorry for suspecting you but you're the FIRST person that came to my mind.
If you're NOT the person that spam iqah then i'm sorry.
But if you were the one then let me tell you this..

My happiness is none of your concern anymore.
I guess i am happy now. I have friends that care for me MORE than you ever did.
And i dont hate you for whatever reasons or whatever you did.
I've already let everything go when i found out the truth about you.
It has nothing to do with my new friends.
If you hate my guts so much,please have your sweet revenge.
When you're sastified,please have a happy life without hatred.
Hatred wont bring you any higher to where i am.
Its happiness and to accept everything.
Your mistake was never mine. I realise mine and i'm letting go.
Honestly,i will never hate you.
How can i ever hate someone that i used to love so much?
I'm not like you. My feelings were sincere and i meant every single thing i've said to you.
But sometimes i do wonder,should i hate you for hurting me or love you for making me feel special?
I guess letting go is still the best choice.
I will try my best not to look back ever again.
I'm still willing to be your friend after everything but are you?
I guess i've done my part as your girlf when i was with you.
So i have no regrets cuz i gave my everything to make our rs a happy one.
It end,so?
You've got new friend and i got new friend(S).
I still care for you as a friend.
So please have a happy life okay.
If hating me will make you happy then hate me by all means,i couldn't care less.
Now,feel what i used to felt.
Being lonely without any one.
Remember karma? (:
I know you'll say 'no friends wont die' but you're wrong.
I lost my friends cuz of you and now your friends came and become my friends.
They're the greatest i shall say.
Have a happy life .
I'll pray for your well being.
Ohh wait,i dont pray.
So i hope you'll have everything you've ever wanted.
Study hard aites.
Take care.
I'll always be somewhere near when you need me.

Okay,thats a long post.
I'm tired.
Futhermore,i LOST MY VOICE!
Now,i cant even say a SINLGE word except to whisper!

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeeeee

2009-05-17T18:04:00.003+08:00

to a woman so heartless..

Okay,i'm bored!
Like seriously i have nothing to do and i mean NOTHING!
I'm just wasting my life away as usual!
I haven't yet start doing my N level ART!
How great is that?!
Ohh,i just can't be bother.
It has been two days and i'm still waiting.
Waiting for what?
I don't know! haha!
Tmr i'm not schooling so meeting friends tmr! Gyeah!
Someone please talk to me! haha!

Flu,flu go away!

Okay i'm DONE! ((:

Yours Sincerely;

Fieeeeeee